+ DEBUT SOLO ALBUM FROM JULIA KUGEL OF THE COATHANGERS

+ SUICIDE SQUEEZE MAIL-ORDER EXCLUSIVE LIMITED TO 400 COPIES ON MILKY MINT VINYL

+ LP INCLUDES PRINTED INNERSLEEVE & DL CARD

+ CD HOUSED IN A JEWELCASE

+ ARTIST EXCLUSIVE LP VARIANT LIMITED TO 100 COPIES ON CLEAR AUTUMN SPLATTER

+ RETAIL LP VARIANT LIMITED TO 1,500 COPIES ON HEARTBEAT PINK VINYL

+ INCLUDES IMMEDIATE DOWNLOAD OF "FEVER IN MY HEART"

If you can’t trust yourself, who can you trust?

This is the crucial question at the core of Julia, Julia, the moniker for Julia Kugel, founding member of garage punk icons The Coathangers and the dream pop duo Soft Palms. On her first solo full-length album Derealization, Kugel shifts her focus from collaboration and band dynamics towards a singular artistic vision and private self-discovery. Steeped in the beguiling pop elements of her past work, Derealization is a meditative deep dive into the mind of a person struggling to understand a crumbling internal and external world. The album traverses a landscape of ethereal folk, atmospheric deconstructed pop, and dubbed-out country ballads, all centered around straight forward and direct lyrics. This juxtaposition of nebulousness and lucidity gives the album a sense of clarity emerging from the haze, an apt reflection of Kugel's personal growth and journey toward self-acceptance.  

Derealization is based on weaving the unreal, unsaid, and unknown into an undulating sonic fabric. Vocal layering and abstract instrumentation convey a blurred desperation to connect to an emotional and psychological focal point. Moody, dark, and sumptuous, the record is a flow chart of Julia Kugel coming into herself as an artist and songwriter. The album finds Julia playing almost all the instruments and taking her first stab at engineering at COMA, her and her husband's home recording studio in Long Beach, CA.

“You know how touring musicians often speak of whether home is real or tour is real? Well, it can lead you to lose grasp on ‘reality,’ especially when touring is taken away and you are left to wonder if anything was ever real, including yourself.  Like you we're just playing a character,” Kugel says of her headspace leading up to the creation of Derealization. “Honestly, I kinda lost it, and through making this record I made peace with it and reconciled myself as a real person. I forgave myself and in turn forgave those around me. The song ‘Forgive Me’ is the apology I wanted to say and to hear. I wrote every song from that place and gained the confidence I was pretending to possess.” 

This raw and personal approach to the lyrics is present throughout Derealization. On the opening track "I Want You," Kugel creates a woozy sense of space with reverb-soaked drums and spaghetti western guitars while she lists off her desires for a mysterious “you.” Is she actually listing off her desires for herself? For the people around her? As she repeats "do you feel it?" in the song’s chorus, it feels as if she’s conjuring a magical thread by which we are all connected, showing us how our desires are all the same. On "Fever In My Heart" the listener is treated to a lush, acoustic techno track detailing the exhilarating madness of an emotional breakdown. Simple truths percolate to the surface on "Words Don't Mean Much,” as if clearing away the murk of platitudes and empty gestures. The journey continues on the detached and conflicted "Do It Or Don't,” an alluring walk through the winding road of lonely choices. 

The name for the project—Julia, Julia—is a look in the mirror, a reflection of what is hidden and unanswered, of what is real and what is transient.  The experience of living life not as you planned it but as it unfolded, and the mysterious, magical pain that creates meaning. Suicide Squeeze Record is proud to offer up Julia, Julia’s Derealization to the world on September 30, 2022. 

Track-listing:

1. I Want You
   
2. Forgive Me
   
3. Impromptu 
   
4. Fever In My Heart
   
5. Words Don't Mean Much
   
6. Do It Or Don't
   
7. No Hard Feelings
   
8. Big Talkin'
   
9. Paper Cutout 
10. Where Did You Go
    
11. Corner Town 

ALL SONGS WRITTEN AND PERFORMED BY JULIA KUGEL
MIXED AND DESIGNED BY JULIA KUGEL & SCOTT MONTOYA AT CENTRE OF MENTAL ARTS (COMA) EXCEPT "PAPER CUTOUT" & "WHERE DID YOU GO" RECORDED & MIXED BY ED RAWLS AT LIVING ROOM STUDIOS
MASTERED BY MICK BOGGIS
PHOTOS BY JASON TRAVIS